10-13-2025

 I am not a person prone to dreams and I know I married a prophet.  How? God told me so.  My hubby is a very busy person in his job, very diligent.  He cares about the smallest things, indeed, some of them have driven me up a wall as his wife.  I look forward to the day where he can walking in his calling.  In the meantime, this is scary for me.  I do not like this.  It is uncomfortable, but I trust the Lord and I will obey the Lord.  

Again I woke up to a voice...My first reading of asking the Lord what He wanted to say led me to Revelation 8.  The voice I had heard stated "The voices rejected will now be heard." As I sat to seek Jesus this morning, and began to write ...

The voices of rejection have reached the ears of God and He wants you to know He has heard and He says, "Speak! Speak the truth!  Do NOT take vengence for vengence is mine saith the Lord.  But tell, tell your experiences.  The weights are in balance.  To those who have rejected them saying "This is not God.  Why would God pick them?" I say to you, "You thought my obedient servents were loud and you told them to be quiet.  I am turning them loose.  I am turning loose those who will be loud and who will be heard.  For those who are obedient and have been obedient I have heard and answered.  It is now up to you to obey.  The boldness of God - You have it!  The fire of God - You have it!  Continue in spending time with me and seeking me.  The prophets will judge the prophets.  You will know the true from the false by their fruits.  Do they seek to please me or others?  You will know them by their love for me and their love for my body.  

10.10.2025

 To Obey is Better Than Sacrifice....

Had a dream two days ago.  In it, I was having to choose.  I was upset -  the choice to "obey God," or choose to follow my own choice.  I woke up - asking questions.  I was confused, not sure...I knew the decision was crucial and I wanted to "obey the Lord" but both choices seemed that they could be "God's Way."  I knew my answer lay in God's Word.  I was then reminded of past events.  Events where God had already proved to me that "to obey Him (His Word) is better than sacrifice."  So I wake up this morning having a dream and again, the person in my dream was a reminder of an event where the choice "to obey is better than sacrifice" was really cemented in my life...a life pivoting moment teaching the concept of draw the line and do not cross it moment in my life. Again, confirmation of "it is better to obey than sacrifice."  I have been making an attempt to solidly meet with the Lord first thing in the morning.  Read His Word, take time to hear from Him.  I was directed to Ezekial 3 and OH MY!!!  As I began I was asking "Lord, is this me?"  Again, I was reminded about the "ink bag." I believe it is in Chapter 8, (it was Chapter 9) but by Chapter 35, I put down my Bible and was looking for breakfast.  Pondering just what the Lord was trying to say to me and asking.  A video came across my path and I felt prompted to watch the video.  The video happened to be Melissa Redpill.  I had thought my husband had said she was a 'schill' but he did not remember saying that to me when I asked him to read this word, judge it and should I share it...see I do confer to my husband... and did not remember watching her.  However, that aside, she had some good points in her video about control and manipulation.  I disagree with her stance on Israel.  God is not done with Israel.  The church has not replaced Israel.  It's another topic for another day, but I felt like the Lord was saying, "Write." It's always scary as the penalty in the Old Testament was death to a false prophet, and none of us (I'm not a prophet) None of us want to be put to death for trying to give a message we feel the Lord is putting on our hearts to say.  Here goes...

"Behold, you have traded your blessing for a curse.  You chose to believe another way instead of my ways.  Repent! Repent! Your help comes from the Lord - Not man's logic or wisdom.  Stop striving! (my thoughts - Oh Lord, help me! This is scary. I do not want this.) God is looking.  Who will step up?  Who will follow Him?  No matter the sacrifce.  His logic is not man's logic.  It does not make sense, but God knows the end from the beginning.  Who will obey?  Who will do the right thing? Who will seek the Lord to "hear" His voice.  To obey is better than sacrifice.  The Feast of Trumpets is past.  It will now be a solemn feast.  No more rejoicing, but a wailing for you were warned.  Repent!  You thought to hide your sins saying "see, no one will know."  But I tell you God knows for He sees all and knows all.  Every knee will bow and every tongue will confess "Jesus Christ is Lord."  God is gathering His people.  He is not going to have a tainted, dirty bride.  His bride is spotless.  Who will hear the voice of the Lord?  Who will obey?  To obey is better than sacrifice.  

 Have you ever heard a sermon on hemorrhoids? Or, 

how's your emerods doing????

Never have I ever, in all of my years walking with Christ ever heard a pastor, teacher, prophet, evangelist or a minister mention hemorrhoids in their sermons.  I have my wonderful hubby to thank for this post today.  He ordered a book "God Shock" or something like that for the title.  I cannot tell you who wrote it or if that is the correct title, but he read a short blip from the book to me and yes, the Bible talks about hemorrhoids.  I ran to find my Bible and look it up and right there it was, in plain black lettering ink on the white page.  

If you turn to 1 Samuels 6 and start reading you will find the Phillistines had the Ark of the Covenant.  They had had the Ark long enough that they were having issues and they wanted to get rid of their issue.  The priests gave them specific insturctions for dealing with sending the Ark away from their presence and they needed to do to receive their healing.  

As I read this passage, I laughed and laughed.  I just got a glimpse of God's humor.  Now some will say, that's not what that word means, but if you look it up and consider the context of the first few verses I believe it is exactly what it means, i.e. emerods = hemorrhoids.  The other meaning totally does not fit what is being talked about in the opening of the sixth chapter of 1 Samuel.  They had to make an image of their 'emerods' and send it along with some other things in the Ark.  This brought a whole new meaning to xerox copying your rear-end on the copier at work moment.  Okay, I'm taking captive those thoughts, saying Thank You to the Lord for the best chuckle I have had in a while all while thinking about all the different ways they may have attempted this task of 'making an image of their emerods.'  

"Hey, my friend, could you look at my rear end and draw a picture of it?"  'Uh, NO!'

So there you have it, the Bible does talk about hemorrhoids.  I almost felt sorry for the Phillistines, almost...Don't mess with God and don't mess with His Ark.  

Beware Strange Food!!!

My blogging today includes another validation/confirmation that I am hearing and being obedient to the Lord to do His will.  It's hard when people have attacked you so much that you do begin to doubt that you are hearing from Jesus.  And to be honest, it's not the people, it's the devil trying to get you off track.  They really get offended then because they're a Christian and how could the enemy ever be operating in them?  Right?? Ever met one of THOSE people.  The reality is we can all be one of those people.  

So a few months ago, I got in trouble.  I mean I really got in trouble for giving a word for the Lord.  The Pastor called me and wanted to ask some questions.  It wasn't said outright so much but it did feel like a threat or an intimidation to do what they said or you will not be allowed to come here anymore.  Questions asked were confusing and I just did not understand why is it so hard for them to understand what God was saying, "Repent! Repent!  You lie, you cheat!  You Steal!  You talk about people and say all manner of things about them which are not true!  I want to spend time with you.  Repent and come back to me."  It is essentially what I remember of the word and if I had known I was going to say that, I would not have said it.  

I felt very validated yesterday.  I watched the youtube video put out by Kim Clement's daughter, Donnae Petruske (probably spelling her name wrong) which Kim had given over Paula White.  It was from 2009.  In his message, just a few minutes after he had prophecied over Pastor White, Kim made the statement about how "He did not want to do this.  And you have no idea, how many times he had asked God to take his gift of prophecy away.  He did not want it."  I totally related to that moment.  The confirmation of "If I had known I was going to say that, I would not have given it."  He is explaining how God does not let us know what He is doing because if we did, we would not do it or say it.  That's kind of like God and exactlty how He does things.  I felt more validation and confirmation as I was asked if I was able to 'control'when this happens to make it more acceptable to the 'church gathering.'  Ummmm, no, I can control it like - not say it.  But when God says, "Say it."  There is no delay,.  It's "Yes Sir!  Right now."  And I never know when it's going to happen.  Kim again relayed that he did not know when or if God would move, when or if he would have any thing to say and that anyone wanting that is trying to control the prophecy, to put God in a box, control God.  Well, yes, that is exactly what happened.  I understood in an instance and if I could go back and have that phone conversation I would say to them, watch Kim's video.  Take heed the warning.  God is warning you.  As for me, I'm going to be obedient to Jesus and say what He says to say when He says to say it.  That's all I can do because I want to hear the words, "Well done thou good and faithful servant!"  

Now on to the dream - So lately I have been asking God to meet me.  I'm not a person prone to dreams or remembering them, whatever goes on in that process.  However, lately I have been praying before I go to sleep, Lord meet me in my sleep.  I want to hear your words.  I want to know what you want me to know and say what you want me to say.  This morning I woke up hearing the words "Beware the Strange Food!"  I was in the middle of a dream.  You know that weird thing where you are literally waking up from a dream, hearing God speaking to you while trying not to forget what you were doing or where you were at in the moment...

So another couple and my husband and myself were at an event that had just ended.  We all were very hungry and decided to try out this new place in town.  We were seated and the host was serving us cereal (appetizers).  It was new.  It was hopping, busy, busy, busy.  He had a bright shiney white teeth smile and the colors were amazing.  I was kind of amuzed because of what was being served, cereal...I was so hungry and I was looking around for a menu because I wanted more, something meatier...you know really hungry.  I thought to myself if all I'm getting is cereal then I want my favorite which I haven't had for years due to an allergy to bananas.  I was gonna having banana walnut cereal.  

The host came back but in the process changed, not that I saw it, but it just changed in the moment and the waitress was standing there ready to take our orders.  I was frustrated at this point as I wanted to see a menu.  I had been asking questions and she seemed to be irritated that I was asking questions.  I kept asking for a menu because others were ordering but I could not figure out the ordering menu system and I yet to see a menu.  The host had not given us one; there were not any on the table as is the custom nowdays, and the waitress had not given us any menus.  I continued asking questions and she really seemed irritated and finally handed me a menu.  I chuckled at this point because I was confused.  The menu was no menu.  I looked at it and it had only two sections.  One was appetizers (cereals) and the other was chicken.  No prices. No other food choices.  At this point I again heard a loud voice say, "Beware strange food!"  

Immediately, the Lord began to give me bullet points:  

1.  Question everything.  Don't let it bother you if they get upset.  I don't mind questions. ( my after thoughts - Now, isn't that so much like God? )

2.  Look for details and specifics.  There will be details - The absence of prices, products, missing parts of the menu and I realized the menu was symbolizing the Holy Bible.  Their menu was fake representing half truths, lacking details and specifics.  God's Word is very clear and while not always so readily understandable and needing input from the Holy Spirit to help us understand, guide us, or teach us.  He always has patience with us, does not mind our questions, and He wants us to search and search, never getting upset with us for asking for clarification or understanding.

3.  Beware strange food - Heed the warning.  Search, seek, ask questions of everything, and know that God does not mind you asking.  He does mind you doubting, but He does not mind you asking for clarification.  It is only by knowing God's Word that is going to keep you safe going forward.  It is up to us to know God's Word by spending time in it and seeking answers, spending time in prayer, doing the things God has instructed us in His Word.    

 I could be really snarky right now and say, "I TOLD YA SO..."  

First of all, God, I come to you and ask for forgiveness (repentance) ...help me convey what I have had on my heart for years and have held the word, and held the word because I thought it was me...It was just me being emotional about something I'm really passionate about...Only to find out, that no, it wasn't being passionate about something.  It was you trying to get me to say what you wanted said which I still struggle with because, why Lord, why oh why would you pick me, this horrible, carnal, lives in her flesh person to try to give your words to others.  It must be really bad because you keep on picking me and I keep trying to sound the alarm and everyone, I mean EVERYONE, says "You're judging."  'It's only your own unforgiveness speaking.' "Sit down and be quiet, we don't want to hear it."  All while I'm struggling to believe God would pick someone like me to use for His purpose which now, I thank you because you have given me confirmation, after confirmation, after confirmation that I really was hearing from you.  It wasn't all in my head.  It wasn't just the pizza talking.  Thank you for being understanding with me and patient and bringing me to the point that the only thing that matters is that I obey you, Jesus.  You are the only one I have to be worried about not obeying.  
And already the enemy is attacking and I hear, "Who do you think you are?"  'Narcicist!' "Derisive laughter with a screaming Yeaaaaahhhhh Rrrriiiiigggghhhht!" 
Thank you, Jesus, you are so faithful to us when we are not faithful to you.  
This post is about Praise and Worship.  No, it's not a gripe about the way something was played.  It is, however, about how our song lyrics should reflect true Biblical doctrine.  I could really get on the band wagon right now about how satan has influenced and gotten in to the church.  But, believe it or not, that is not what this post is about.  
This post is about bring a sacrifice of praise unto the Lord because He is the only one worthy to receive glory, honor and praise.  This post is about when ministering (leading praise and worship) to Jesus' body, how we are to approach it.  I have seen some really flippent attitudes when it comes to praise and worship.  Like, all you gotta do is play and sing, right?  right???  NO, that's not all you gotta do.  At times, in the past, when I have tried to explain I get rolley eyeballs, sighs, and mumbled 'Oh brother...'  'you're too serious..'  yada, yada, yada....
Several years ago, I wrote an article that I have been sitting on for a while.  I have shared it with a couple of people who I wanted them to understand the place 'praise and worship' has in my heart.  God gave me the gift and I'm going to use it for only for Him.  I'm going to obey when He says, "Do this."  I'm afraid it will confuse people more which is one reason I have held on to it for so long and not wanting to hurt people.  Also my own insecurities and doubts, but remember that confirmation.  Yep, I got confirmation it was time to share it.  I have to thank remant ministries who are standing against what is happening in the churchworld today for giving me the courage to try yet again... 
Before I share it, I just wanted to remind you that satan was the angel who was the gifted musician who played in Heaven before decided he could take on God and take over God.  There's the first mistake.  The enemy knows music is powerful and did you ever not think he would not try to slip in and ruin true praise and worship?  Corrupt the doctrines through music so that greasy grace and inappropriate dressing, actions, and behaviors would cause disruption to the point that no one can focus on Christ much less be able to respect and give reverance so that the Holy Spirit could move.  No, the disrespect is loud and clear.  The Holy Spirit is a gentleman.  He never forces, He will leave where He is not wanted, and He will not try to talk over you because He is all about free will.  If you want Him to move, you have to make place for Him.  If He wants prayer, you pray; if He wants singing, you sing, if He wants preaching, you preach.  It's never the same...He doesn't do the same thing over and over and over....that's called a rut, and to quote my Pastor, "Do you know what a rut is?  It's a coffin with the ends knocked out. You just keep doing the same thing over and over."  Yeah, see how far that one will get you....Please can we get back to giving the Lord all praise, glory and honor, make sure our lyrics are lining up with Biblical Doctrine and does not go against God's Word, The Holy Bible.  
Here is the article..I wrote it to have an answer to give when someone asked me about wanting to be on the worship team - Warning, Remember, the priests were held to a higher standard.  They had to get it right.  If they didn't, it cost them their lives.  If you are going to serve Christ, it will cost you your life.  The flesh must die.  I pray Lord, eyes will be opened, and ears will hear what you have to say in the name of your Son, Jesus  Christ!      

So You Want To Be On the Worship Team???
I have been a part of worship teams for quite a few years. I have been approached by people who, with a sincere heart, inquire about being on the team. I try to be gracious as I really do not want to offend the person. Just recently I was approached and decided I needed to have some kind of a response to make the person think about exactly what they are asking. We are in a royal priesthood established by Jesus Christ with Jesus himself as our High Priest. The purpose of the music service is to bring a sacrifice of praise to the Lord, help his people enter into His throne room and interact with the Holy Spirit to bring a sacrifice of glory, honor, praise, and thanksgiving to the Lord. I view my ministry as a musician for the Lord, a psalmist, very seriously. Some people would say I am too serious as they have rolled their eyes, basically do not get what I am saying when after they have asked a question; I try to answer their question. This has been a dilemma for me. Their reactions have been, to me, flippant, irreverent, and like – “All you do is play an instrument and sing, right?” WRONG!
For me, to play and sing or just play or just sing is a ministry in and of itself like a pastor, teacher, prophet, evangelist, etc. People don’t get this and I asked the Lord, how can I help them to understand the great responsibility given to worship teams? - Sometimes even when the worship teams, themselves, do not understand the great responsibility and privilege of bringing the sacrifice of praise to the Lord. Others say, you are just too serious and it really doesn’t matter. Hmmmm, really doesn’t matter…I don’t think so…not when I look to scripture and see what the temple priests were required to do for worship. If Christ came to fulfill the law and did not do away with the law, aren’t we still under some kind of, for lack of a better term, regulation to fulfill our office as a worshipper with the same kind of dedication, instruction, and seriousness of heart as a person who is leading God’s people into His presence?
You want to be on the worship team? I ask you to consider what the Bible says about the Levitical Priests and the requirements for worship. Then I ask you to consider the Royal Priesthood. Whatever God has called you to do, he will equip you for your position. But are you taking it seriously? Are you flippantly casting God off or not even spending the time with him to consider how you can improve your ministry?
I am by no means perfect and make mistakes all the time. Thank you Jesus for your mercy and grace because if we were under a Levitical priesthood ruling, your life would count on you having it right with no mistakes. So the next time someone asks me about the worship team, my response is going to be something like – Tell me what you know about the Priests of the Temple. While we have much liberty and freedom in Christ, I desire to approach His throne room with all the respect, courtesy and integrity that the priests of the temple approached the Temple of God.

 Repent...

                Set Boundaries...

                                             Forgive...           

A long, long time ago, I home schooled our children.  When I quit my career of medical transcription, I set a foundation for 'my school.'  I had three rules that we followed.  They were our guideposts in the goals we were to aim for, because you must have goal posts.  

The first rule was:  If you cheat yourself now, you will cheat yourself later.  This meant that if you took a shortcut and cheated to achieve (fill in the blank...) you were only hurting yourself because somewhere down the line you are going to have to come back and learn whatever (fill in the blank) you cheated to get out of doing.  

Rule #2:  If you don't get it the first time, it's okay.  Because you can try again and we will try again until you do get it.  But, I gave them a caveat of - With the world you are going to have to get it the VERY FIRST TIME!  Because in most cases, the world will not give you a second chance.  If I made an error in guiding rules, it would be this one.  I already felt I was too hard on my children and thought I was being kind an generous to give them multiple chances to get it right.  

Rule #3, well, basically, I had two rules, that's it...two rules that  you read above.  But I did have an analogy of "The Best Chocolate Chip Cookie Ever."  I do not know who wrote this anology otherwise, I would credit them.  The story goes:  A chef is telling his students they are getting ready to make the best cookies ever.  They assemble the ingredients and began to prepare the cookies.  As they get to the last part of the cookie ingredients being stirred in to the batter, the chef says," Wait a minute!  I've forgotten something.  Here, here is some dog poo!  It's what makes the cookies so great."  The students were like, "Ewww!!!! No Way!!! Are you crazy?" The chef patiently waited, listening to their responses.  Finally one student said, "It's wrong!  It will ruin the recipe."  The chef exclaimed, "Finally, someone gets it!  Yes, it's wrong.  It doesn't matter how much or how little, if there is just the slightest bit of dog poo in there, it has corrupted the batter."  

So this is how I came apply a search for the very elusive truth we are all searching for and seeking.  Somethings appear very good, but they added something.  The something they added is the equivalent of dog poo.  I have said, and said, and said "Read your Bible."  The Bible is truth.  

And I will admit I'm the first to run and seek an answer from a 'how to' book looking for those so valuable coping skills that somehow I never learned all in  trying to heal myself.  I do feel like Holy Spirit led me to "Boundaries and Confronting the Jezebel Spirit" books.  But, while these books are very good on seeing the problem, they really are not good at teaching coping skills.  The reason why is because they go against scripture or do they?  There in lies the question...This is why I'm stressing that truth is paramount.  If something goes against scripture, I'm sorry my friend, you are wrong.  If someone is telling you to do something that is not in scripture such as drag up all the details of your past, that is not scriptural.  You have to have the whole counsel of God not part of it.  God told me when I got saved, "You are a new creature in Christ.  All the old things are passed away.  You are no longer that person."  

Now for anyone learning boundaries, it is an incredibly difficult process.  First you do have to shake off the chains of religion.  You know, you 'll hear that voice that says "You haven't forgiven them."  And yet, here you are remembering asking God to forgive you and them.  Yet, this red flag keeps slapping you in the face.  Someone accusing you of doing something that you are not doing.  Be honest with yourself.  If you have done it, admit it.  But trust me, if someone is telling you they are not and they are trying to tell you their story but you are not listening, they are just going to get louder and louder because keeping quiet is what they used to do. Keeping quiet never changed anything except God has a way.  Sometimes it just doesn't happen fast enough.  That's another issue patience.  But sometimes, it is important that someone points out the issue because just take a look at what's going in our world right now.  

So my path and dilemna which I would like to hear others' voices on is:  Where did the dog poo come in?  Have we taken on too much of the world's way of dealing with problems rather than dealing with them God's way.  And it doesn't make it truth if you are outcasted from a community of believers and the only thing you did was stand for scriptural integrity.  I'm a new creature in Christ not a people pleaser.  I used to be a people pleaser until Christ told me I could not be that anymore.  Quench not the Holy Spirit.  Forbid not the speaking in tongues.  Repent.  I'm a new creature in Christ.  I don't have to drag up all my past sins and recount them.  I'm healed.  I'm delivered.  I'm a new creation.  Christ has taken my sin and thrown it as far from the east to the west.  Don't ask me to do what you are not willing to do.  And then you see it, you see the tactic and it's too late because they set you off.  Yet, they say you are the one that's wrong.  

Well, I'm here to say that yes, some boundaries are apparently helpful and will protect you.  But the scriptural chocolate chip cookie has been corrupted because God gives unconditional love and true love in Christ would not behave that way - accusing, talking about someone, trying to set up scenarios that makes them appear a certain way, etc., etc.  God has already warned me of what is coming and has told me I'm protected.  I will stand with God.  I don't giving a flying flip fartleberry what you say, think or feel because I know what scripture says.  I believe my Bible more than what I can see, touch, taste, hear or feel in this physical world.  So outcast me, I'm not alone.  Talk about me, go ahead, I don't care anymore.  I'm gonna side with God and His Word because my Bible tells me so.  If  I'm burnt up and we will all stand before Him and our works will be thrown in to the fire, what remains is what we get to give Jesus.  I want everything I did to count for Christ.  Let's clean up the batter shall we?